Life as a Utarian

It's 3pm right now, and guess what? I just went to yumcha and played basketball with my friends in the midnight. woots! Had so much fun with them.

Well, I've started my college life month ago. Im getting used to it, I personally think that I've met a bunch of awesome friends. Everyone of them are so friendly and funny which makes me get along with them very well.

Alright, I think I've started to love Kampar this place, dont feel like going to KL after a year. Im still wondering should I change my course to stay in Kampar. God, please lead me to a direction. 

Besides that,assignments are pain in the neck. I understand what College/Uni life means,like finally! Everyone and everyday was like rushing assignments and test. 

Hmppph...nothing much to say, let the pictures tell everything. :)

My group members!

I love to stay with them cause laughters are always around us.

Im the class rep! and everyone of them keep calling me banzhang banzhang, I hate it caused it sounds like primary school.

 My bodyguards?

We're young! :)

New Toys.

Got my new toys, Sony Xperia S and Asus N55.

I got it within one week and it got scratches. damn it. I need a phone case! 

I personally love the sound system of this laptop. pretty awesome.

First day in Kampar

It's my first day here in Kampar. I personally think it's awesomeee.

Im not alone, I have a bunch of good friends here. So glad that I have a few of friends staying together with me.
Im so excited about my new life. Cause I was like...so free here. Nobody can control my life. I mean my mum. haha. I know I will miss her sometimes later but not now. lol

Honestly, for my parents and someone else will think that I will not study hard and Im here for honeymoon because I have so many good friends here.

 Dont worry, I will behave myself after my course started and I will study like real hard.

This is crazy.

 Webcam with Vivienn:)




My first day was awesomeee.

It's May.

Im so excited right now! I reckon every Malaysia's VIPs are extraordinary excited right now!

















Yes, BIG BANG is coming to M'sia soon! BIG BANG IS COMING! I repeat, B-I-G B-A-N-G IS
COMFIRMED COMING TO M'SIA TO HOLD A CONCERT! *SCREAMMMM

Im praying hard that my daddy will allow me to go this concert and what I have to do now is save money for this! I want to get a rock pit area ticket if possible! Gonna scream my lungs out. Im just too excited, like real excited!



Well, Besides that, I would recommend a documentary video to you guys which inspired me. It was so touch and meaningful. This is a documentary video about three 15 years old girls which were diagnosed with terminal bone cancer, but instead of waiting to die, they choose to use their stories to inspire others to appreciate their life.

*warmly remind* Prepare some tissue papers before watching it. :)

 Love life forever.

Alive

It's been a long time, guys, Im alive:))
I will blog often right now.haha
Well, what I've been through this few months? I've went for few places as a vacation and the rest I was at home and face the computer,hang out with friends, watching dramas, facebook and twitter-ing. lol. How meaningless!

And Im gonna start my new life very soon, Im going back to school! :) I mean my Uni life. Im going to UTAR for foundation, honestly, I dont really feel like going to Kampar for my further studies but since my parents want me to go there so I have no choice. I will attempt to like this Uni since Im gonna stay there for a year or years.

Besides that,National service is pain in the neck. I got Kem PLKN White Resort, Balik Pulau in Pulao Pinang. I wanted to go since everyone of my friend who went for NS keep telling me how fun was NS. And Im a person who love challenging and exciting stuff, of course I bet myself I will love NS life too!
WHY IM NOT IN FIRST BADGE? ARGHHH
how good if I was in first badge, the first 3 months I wont be wasting it and I can start my studies earlier. and now everything goes upside down which bother me a lots! okay, my fate.


Here are some photos about what I did these few months:)

I have went to Singapore Universal Studio:)

Sentosa beach with my cousins.

East Coast Park with Jia Yun.

SPM result day. Ohya, about my SPM result. Im satisfied with it since I pass all the subjects. haha. and I got 5 credits and above, more than enough :)

went KL for some edu information.

Met my primary old friends:)

Pay UTAR for a visit. lol

  Went Genting Highland with family for a short break.

我最敬爱的公公

阿公一直都是瘦瘦的，身体也没有很强壮，尤其这几年一直都往医院跑。他是一关又一关地熬过的，从日渐更加消瘦，偶尔神志不清，胃口不好甚至到后来的行动不便，好几次当我们以为就快要失去他的时候他都坚强地挺过去了，现在他真的累了，希望他能好好睡一觉，不再觉得辛苦。

其实我收到消息时是很平静的，甚至松了一口气，阿公来得及回到家中而且在那么多亲人的陪伴下陷入永眠，到了一个不再有烦恼和痛苦的世界，这对他是一种解脱，对于不舍得他受苦的我们也是一种安慰。

现在回想起来，其实从小到大我跟阿公并没有特别地亲近，有时候甚至觉得阿公是传统的大男人，习惯在我们面前板起威严的面孔，有点爱面子也很固执。

我还记得他慢慢卷起烟草然后静静抽着烟的样子，记得他坐在藤椅上看报纸的背影，也记得无数次想跟他聊天却找不到话题而放弃的自己。那时候的他最大的寄托就是果园，往往在那里一待就是大半天，阿公细心地清理榴莲壳上沾着的叶子和泥巴的样子也是我童年记忆里不可磨灭的一个画面；直到他身体开始虚弱没办法再到果园去了，我好象看到他的寂寞。

开始觉得阿公其实很可爱是在最近几年的事，我不清楚是阿公在改变还是我根本就不曾了解过他，可是这样的阿公我真的很喜欢。

也许是在我们一个接一个长大离家后，也许是惊觉阿公阿婆的背越来越驼脚越来越抖了；不确定是什么时候开始时常都会笼罩在失去的恐惧之中。可能阿公自己也明白每一次的相聚都越显珍贵，于是三代人之间的鸿沟慢慢出现了一条小桥，我们也终于发现阿公其实不是想象中那么有距离感，这一个老人也会开玩笑，看见大家开心也会默默地扬起嘴角而不是只有印象中的严肃表情。

我记得有一年除夕阿公来我们家时我们在搓汤圆，阿公难得说等下也要吃一碗，结果那一锅汤圆就因为用错粉而搞砸了，让姐姐成了多年来的笑柄。我也记得最后一个与阿公共度的新年，我们在停电中摸黑接完财神想去阿公家拜年，还来不及出门就看见阿公领着一大群黄家军团浩浩荡荡地来到了，他戴着从中国买回来造型奇特的帽子笑说自己是大老爷，我们在黑暗的大厅中排队向大老爷讨红包并放肆地说说笑笑，恢复电力时一起欢呼然后在阿公面前耍宝拍照，大人小孩都疯成一团，阿公坐在沙发上含笑地看着，那时候的我觉得能出生在这样的家庭里，真好！

一年一度的榴莲大会，每次大家回乡都会浩浩荡荡一起走去面店吃早餐，永远吱吱喳喳说个没完没了的八卦军团，就算是说人是非也大声讲大声笑非常乱水的一家人，那一年的火锅大餐....每一件发生过的事每一张记忆中的笑脸都是家人之间的密码，不需说明大家都有解锁的默契。以后大厅中少了阿公坐镇，我们要更努力的欢笑，让在天堂的阿公也能看到听到，就像他不曾离开过一样。

没办法亲自送阿公这一程对我来说是一种遗憾，因此我也成了要被重点安慰的对象之一，大家异口同声地叫我不要想太多，说阿公会明白我的心意等等；还尽量与我保持连线，我甚至参与了超渡仪式也瞻仰了阿公的遗容，有机会在心里与阿公做最后的对话，我的遗憾也得到了弥补，谢谢我的家人。
希望阿公现在有很好的胃口，可以放心地享受任何他想吃的东西。
希望阿公现在有很好的体魄，不需要轮椅不需要拐杖也能健步如飞，去任何他想去的地方。
希望阿公现在有很好的心情，不再对尘世牵挂，得到了前所未有的自由。
这一个开心的阿公会一直活在我们心里，陪我们继续在人世间流浪。

要经过多少次的轮回才能修来成为亲人的缘分？
现在我含泪完成了这一篇追悼文，以后就让我们以笑容来回忆这个倔强又可爱的老人，謝謝他给了我们浓于水的血缘，让我们有了无论生与死也无法切断的牵绊。

亲爱的阿公，一路走好！by-Nicole.

我要说的其实堂姐都把一部分打完了，真的后悔为什么没有把握跟你好好聊聊，孝顺你的机会。阿公，过得还好吗？很想念你。。。
听妈妈说，阿公是个很有义气的人，年轻时候不管兄弟有什么事都会挺。
阿公的这一生真的过得非常的精彩，他当过抗日军，抗英军，他还是许多社团的大哥，为国家付出了许多，就算没有钱都很重情义。

以前的社团不是现在的黑色会，是为华人付出的团体。 
阿公曾担任过村长整十多年，也说是村里最久的村长。

我真的真的很以他为荣。

阿公，几十年后再见！

很心疼。。 就算再多么的不舍，都要让你在最后一程看见我们的微笑。 阿公的兄弟。 风光大葬。 阿公是让全村人抬着绕村子走的亡生者。

Rest in peace, my beloved grandpa.

I was watching tv at the moment, and my sister ran to us told us grandpa just passed away. I felt shocked and I didnt cry because we knew he cant live long period anymore. I feel shocked because doctor said he can still have 2 days time and suddenly....

2011年1月8日，晚上8点50分

今年86岁的他离开了我们。。。

今晚的月亮很圆很美丽，公公很安详的走了。

这对他来说是一种解脱吧。

公公，一路好走。愿你在天堂过着平静的生活。

看着你的照片，妹妹和我眼泪一直往下流。

现在满脑子都是你的画面，真的真的很想你。

以前都不会表示对你的爱及尊敬，现在真的有点后悔。

安息吧，我最尊敬的公公。

我长大了，放一百个心走吧。我会照顾妹妹们的。。。

Bye to my original hair colour

Bye bye to my original hair colour! :)
As you guys know, previously my original hair colour looks like ang mo. But still I wanted to dye it and try another colour. My original hair colour look like ash brown when the sunlight shines on it. And this is the first time I dye my hair and I prefer light golden brown but it turns out another colour which seems abit red. But still, I like it. Thanks to Jia Yun for helping me to dye it. :)



Bye bye my original hair colour. I will miss you :(

Hello, new colour! :)

Merry X'mas! :)

So sad that I cant spend my Christmas in Singapore, but glad that I spent with my best buddy Shermaine this year. :)

We had a lot of fun taking photos around, this is the very first time using red lipstick. It turns out not so bad. :)

Merry Christmas everyone!

Shooo shoooo go away SPM!

STRESSSSS STRESSSSS STRESSSSS!

SPM finally officially END!

WOOOORAYYYYY :))

IM FREEEEEEE :)